As a crude analogy I think of a computer desktop. When you start off you can manage your documents easily. But if there is a problem filing away it becomes more and more difficult to find anything. If you take a break and do some filing then capacity returns. Another analogy might be a vacuum cleaner that works fine at first, but unless you keep cleaning the hair out of the brushes it soon becomes feeble until turned off and cleaned out.
The analogies may not be that good but I wonder if the problem in ME is less activity capacity itself and more a block in systems that 'tidy away' afterwards so that the problem only appears later when you may be trying to do not very much but even that is blocked by a signalling log jam from before not being cleared away.
This describes my experience
exactly. The other thing that happens is that if you keep trying to vacuum things up with a full bag, despite it's feebleness, it overheats & will start to smell burning/cut out/become otherwise unusable, until it not only cools down & cleaned out but gets a full machine service. And you can only run it to breaking point so many times before it starts to affect function even when newly serviced.
Also with the computer analogy, i have often described my cognitive difficulties/sensory sensitivity (the 2 things are inextricably linked for me) as being like an old pc - where you cannot do too many things at once or it just freezes up. eg on a windows95 pc it was ok to be surfing, & possibly have a doc open as well, but if you tried to have several programs all running at once, it would just freeze & nothing could be done until it rebooted....
So for example i might be able to read for 20mins when well rested & lying down in a quiet room & understand every word, inc dense/heavy content... but if there's sensory input (eg pleasant soft music in background) i can only read for 10mins before symptoms overwhelm.
But trying to read while also having the effort of holding myself upright in dining chair, while soft music on
and someone talking
and a flickering light will cause complete incapacitation within just a few minutes - & i'll become too weak to hold myself up in the chair & will fall off it, probably vomit, be unable to speak coherently or understand even simple statements/questions from other people. I dont know where i am, my proprioception goes haywire so i have to look at my arms & legs to know where they are, coordination non existent so struggle to get drink to mouth/dress self etc.
No doctor i have ever told has ever taken this in. They all think it's an emotional thing not being able to 'cope' & getting psych related sensory overload, but it's not like others i've seen who get anxiety related sensory overload & it happens just the same in enjoyable circumstances as in unpleasant ones. In fact if the circumstances that are emotionally difficult - eg the person talking is making me angry or something about it all is making me very anxious, or i'm in some way 'adrenalined up' beforehand - the stress hormones will allow me to do a huge amount MORE - tolerating all that input for at least 5 times longer before the total incapacitation/crash('freeze' in the computer analogy) will occur. Of course the crash/freeze experience will be so much worse then - commensurate with how much longer it all went on for.
I've often thought that was important to figuring out whats causing it all, but no Dr i've ever told takes the slightest bit of notice, so convinced are they that it's a psychological thing.
I also see this pattern of feeling not so bad or even OK while exerting, but being hit with exhaustion as soon as the body shifts into a resting state.
Yes exactly.
Especially for me, if the activity was done while stress hormones elevated for whatever reason.
ETA apologies for contribution to thread drift.