Although I knew instinctively that I was experiencing the chronic aftermath of mono—constant sore throat, swollen glands, brain fog, fatigue—all lab values were normal. I have an enduring memory of physicians peering at me with suspicion when I described my symptoms: Was I experiencing family problems? Work stress? Depression?
It wasn’t until 1988 that the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) recognized this illness and gave it the radically misleading name, chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS), as if those of us with CFS were just tired from busy lives.1 Today, this illness is called myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS) and is more widely understood as a serious illness, but clinical suspicion and misunderstanding persist.2 The majority of textbooks and health professions curricula still include little or nothing about ME/CFS,3 and even well-intentioned clinicians often cannot provide the information their patients need.
A neurologist I saw recently, trying to help me stay active, raised her eyes from her computer screen to encourage me. “I read a study recently that recommended graded exercise for CFS.”
I was seated on the crinkly paper of the exam table, not sure where to begin. This assertion gets me—and so many patients with ME/CFS—where it hurts, since I love to exercise and for decades have tried repeatedly, and failed repeatedly, to increase how far I can walk. I took a breath. “Studies recommending graded exercise for ME/CFS have been discredited,” I said. “Or they included people who were depressed, who do benefit from exercise. But for people with ME/CFS, if we push ourselves to do more, we can make ourselves worse. That’s been my experience.”
She shrugged, “I can’t remember where I read it, but the study did recommend graded exercise.”
My time was up, and I left it at that. But this brief medical encounter was a complex moment, frustrating for me and probably for her, too. It’s worth unpacking.
My neurologist’s recommendation was based on an article she’d read—which she assumed to be based on reliable science—that concluded graded exercise therapy (GET) could produce positive outcomes for those with ME/CFS. Yet I knew from 42 years of experience that my pain and fatigue get worse if I consistently increase my exercise despite how I’m feeling, as GET recommends.