So while you see three of us sitting here today, speaking to you in our personal capacities, we are speaking on behalf of hundreds of NIH staff who are standing up together to say, "We dissent."
Because what is happening at NIH is so egregious, the harms that we're seeing happen to our research participants, and to public health, and to the institution of science, are just things that we could not live with.
And the NIH that I am working in now is unrecognizable to me.
Every day I go into the office and I wonder what ethical boundary I'm going to be asked to violate, what probably illegal action am I going to be asked to take.
And it's just soul crushing. And that's one of the reasons that I'm signing this letter.
One of my co-signers said this, but I'm going to quote them, because I thought it was so powerful:
"You can get another job, but you cannot get another soul."
I am so scared about doing this. But I am trying to be brave for my kids because it's only going to get harder to speak up.
Right now the censorship that we're experiencing at NIH, isn't happening just at NIH. It is happening at every single federal agency, it is happening in academia, it is happening in the media, and it is happening writ large across society.
And I want my kids, as I'm sure every American wants their kids, to grow up in a place where they can speak freely without risking retaliation from their government.