V.R.T.
Senior Member (Voting Rights)
I find the idea of autism being an autoimmune disease profoundly unsettling.
I don't know, obviously I have what we now call level 1 autism, and there are people who are far far more disabled by it than me whose lives would be transformed by a hypothetical cure, and that's very important to acknowledge, but just from my personal perspective - the idea that so much of what I think of as my personality could actually be an autoimmune disease state is really weird to contemplate.
If you could 'cure' it, who would I be? How much of what I think of as me would be left after treatment? Would the autistic traits I find beneficial in life or just pleasant/enjoyable be gone too? Would I still be the person my partner loves? I've definitely experienced a lot of challenges and adverse life events due to my autism and people's attitudes to it. But I don't know if I'd want to get rid of it and be 'normal'. I spent years coming to terms with the fact I'd never be 'normal' and learning to like myself. I would have taken a cure in a heartbeat as a teenager but now I probably wouldn't.
Plus like the whole thing about autism awareness now is that it's supposed to be a difference, a variation in cognition. If it's a disease that sort of undoes all of the progress that's been made by advocacy, and validates in some awful way all the parents and doctors and teachers who traumatise their kids by trying to make them 'normal' and fantasise about a cure.
I have always struggled to understand disabled people who talk about not wanting to be cured when I look at it through the lens of MECFS. But when I look at it through the lens of level 1 autism I can see their point.
I don't know, obviously I have what we now call level 1 autism, and there are people who are far far more disabled by it than me whose lives would be transformed by a hypothetical cure, and that's very important to acknowledge, but just from my personal perspective - the idea that so much of what I think of as my personality could actually be an autoimmune disease state is really weird to contemplate.
If you could 'cure' it, who would I be? How much of what I think of as me would be left after treatment? Would the autistic traits I find beneficial in life or just pleasant/enjoyable be gone too? Would I still be the person my partner loves? I've definitely experienced a lot of challenges and adverse life events due to my autism and people's attitudes to it. But I don't know if I'd want to get rid of it and be 'normal'. I spent years coming to terms with the fact I'd never be 'normal' and learning to like myself. I would have taken a cure in a heartbeat as a teenager but now I probably wouldn't.
Plus like the whole thing about autism awareness now is that it's supposed to be a difference, a variation in cognition. If it's a disease that sort of undoes all of the progress that's been made by advocacy, and validates in some awful way all the parents and doctors and teachers who traumatise their kids by trying to make them 'normal' and fantasise about a cure.
I have always struggled to understand disabled people who talk about not wanting to be cured when I look at it through the lens of MECFS. But when I look at it through the lens of level 1 autism I can see their point.


