It's
both.
BOTH
So at my worst its an excruciating pain - an immediate one, sound particularly, but light also, the slightest sound, even the rustle of the duvet, causes a wave of full body pain, never mind just in the ears & head, it has its 'hand' on the 'dial' of the 'volume' & intensity of
ALL my symptoms, not just the ones you'd expect, but all of them.
But it ALSO causes PEM in & of itself. It must not be forgotten that processing sensory input is exertion, its activity.
So the effort of processing the sensory stimuli, is 'activity' in the same way that moving, talking, thinking etc are. Sensory stimulus processing has same effect as 'exercise', for me at least.
So subjecting someone who is very severe to stimulus challenge, will be BOTH torture in the moment, AND send them further into a post activity crash where all symptoms worsen (whether we call that PEM or PESE or whatever). And the sensory sensitivity
will get worse
Its torturous hell in the moment, and something which will only make the person more ill and MORE sensitive to it. So in the same way that forcing a person to exert 'physically' beyond their tolerance will only make them less able to exert in the long run... Forcing sensory input beyond their tolerance will only make them more ill and MORE sensory sensitive in the long run....
Which is likely why the poor girl is screaming despite the fact that the sound of the screaming is probably agony - because its a natural uncontrollable response to both the agonising pain that the light causes in the moment... and also the terror of the hell that is coming as all the symptoms & pain are only going to get WORSE as a result of the light. And she knows that through long bitter experience.
That light exposure, while torture at the time that doctor is inflicting it, comes also with the promise of even worse torture to come, when the impact of the sensory stimulus (ie the exertion of processing it) hits later on. When the effort of processing the light he's let in, causes even more exacerbation of
every ME/CFS symptom.
Inc sensory sensitivity & therefore it will be even MORE painful than it is currently.
I dont know how to further describe it to people who dont get it, they are unable to hear.
Ending up in Carla's position scares me to death, its just flat out torture, and the staff think they're helping. Its like a horror movie.
From my post
@Yann04 linked to above