one defining feature of PI-ME/CFS was an alteration of effort preference, rather than physical or central fatigue,
I don't know what illness this is describing, but it is certainly not mine. I have been ill for decades, never gave up optimism as to what I can do and yet every time I attempt to do anything that isn't rotting in bed I get PERMANENTLY worse from it. If I'm lucky, I get a PEM that lasts for 2 months instead.
And this is especially true for cognitive effort, which is the most relevant part anyway. Any time I get optimistic and start thinking that I can do anything productive FROM MY BED I get a huge relapse both physically and cognitively from the minimal mental effort I did.
I have more than once embarked in things that were clearly completely out of my league (yet for a normal person, they require maybe 5% of their energy at most), from a mix of desperation and blind optimism, trying to ignore my limitations because I really wanted to do something in life that could be considered productive, have some sort of achievement - I knew that they were crazy to attempt but I figured I had nothing to lose.
I indirectly screwed over other people, making them believe I could do things. Not because I wanted to deceive, but because I had the desperate and delusional optimism of someone with a dream that is about to die next day and truly has nothing to lose. Someone with 500 broken bones that says "fuck It, I'm gonna start running I don't care what happens". It always ends in disaster but you believe that maybe there is a 0.1% chance that the doctors are right and you can really do things if you try hard enough. That if you massacre yourself to unbelievable extents maybe you can be 5% as productive as a normal person, at least for a while...
The answer of course is a categorical no. Nothing is possible. But the blind optimism mixed with literally every doctor in the world telling you otherwise, and the alternative literally being to spend your entire life in bed doing nothing, let's you keep trying.
If there are no cognitive issues in ME/CFS, what's to stop us patients from hopping on a wheelchair and getting back to work or school? I'm a PhD dropout and my brain feels inflamed and legs aching just by trying to read this paper.
Exactly. I don't have much to add other than the people running the study are completely clueless. They are unable to look at the details and their "doesn't seem to be anything wrong but the patients prefer to avoid doing things" reflects that. Completely unable to understand PEM.
Then again, I saw someone in this thread mentioning this study was negative for POTS so maybe their conclusions are right, they just weren't able to actually select the proper patients. In either case, their incompetence killed this study and our hopes it would be anything meaningful.