Question for those of you who use the term poisoned:
Do you think you use it for the same constellation of awfulness that others might use the term malaise for? Or do you use both terms to separate between two different phenomena?
I don't use the term poisoned myself because I associate it with my one experience of food poisoning which had me in the bathroom with my head over the toilet for hours and that's not something ME does to me, but I gather that's not what most pwME mean with feeling poisoned
I don't use the term much and haven't used it here (partly because when I've felt poisoned by alcohol I haven't really because I've know where
that came from sort of thing vs my ME symptoms). And my PEM symptoms are very rheumatically-type aches that spread ie needing cold sheet and rubbing wrists and hands and like a laypersons assumption of what CO poisoning would be re: being knocked out or headachey/migraine sometimes but became clearly related to exhaustion as trying to do anythign (with brain or 'getting/waking up') prolonged it and in pain and aches everywhere (this is the bit where I feel like I've had this too long and right now can't 'do the work' on unbundling some of these).
But there's a different grungy something in the system element (again not 'nausea' but very much including the non-gastro parts and feels more like cells/blood) that isn't always there in any pattern, and I'm not sure whether it is specific to PEM - and that's a hard one because of course I'm likely to be always in some sort of PEM from something that happened some time of some type not having cleared.
And for me I, in particularly used to, (so I wonder whether it is more to do with exertion when you are moderate than 'severity') get in particular down my left arm a feeling of poison in my vein, as in it would hurt a lot and was definitely the vein, particularly in the top to elbow part, and I'm thinking slightly acid-like (but not burny or stingy like acid more hurt like lactic - and this was wayyy before I knew anything about PEM and exercise links) but as I'm being retrospective that could be nonsense. And of course this is technically a different term
I'm really going off-piste here because that had nothing to do with alcohol I don't think, or not in any kind of clear pattern. I'm not left-handed, but did do roles where there were time periods I would lift a lot during certain days for example but it wasn't obviously enough connected to that I put my finger on it being specifically that (but then this was far before Workwell stuff was out, and I just got laughed at and told not to tell anyone else because they'd think I was mad etc - so this is
really hard to look back at these ignored thoughts that were only 'me with me': this is what the 'BS CBT culture' on this occasion not just cfs-CBT does/did to us, whether
we did it or not we got aggressed and 'taught' on these kinds of things
directly because of it).