This exactly!
And when I was at my illest only very minor symptoms triggered a big and longterm lowering of that threshold.
@Jonathan Edwards
Think of it as having to budget on a low income using a credit card, that if you overdrew at all, even just a tiny amount, you were are hit with high interest, AND a lowering of the next threshold for the big interest rates kicking in.
Very soon you learn to avoid all stepping into the red (that could be like mild ME symptoms) because you know you don’t have the means to pay back the interest, and are worried that you are going to be hit even harder for the next transgression. Does that make sense?
I am now more able than before. I have more reserves. I can dip into the red (and so have a few symptoms) because I seem to be able to recover from those symptoms (ie pay back the debt - or do the PEM time), and also not have my threshold lowered ( so after the PEM, I return to my status quo).
When more ill, I had to be much more cautious about ever dipping into the red ( so I tried to avoid having symptoms at all costs) because of the double whammy of both the interest repayments, which I didn’t have the income or savings to pay back (ie the PEM was miserable) and the punitive lowering of the borowing threshold along with dramatically increased repayment terms.
With all that in mind
of course I’m going to do everything I can to avoid any symptoms (going into the red).
This is why focus on symptoms can be a problem. After many years of effective pacing, long-term ME peeps will know to pull back on even the whisper of a symptom to avoid the crippling penalties.
Yet we can also detect when the PEM threshold lifts a bit. I suspect this is because because most of us bump along close to it (we all have a desire to live well) and end up reining ourselves in on a frequent basis when our symptoms or PEM are greater than anticipated.
We will still do all we can to not poke the bear (to suddenly switch analogies!).
It is a concept that is difficult to explain, even to those that live with us.
(Couple of edits just after posting to make it make sense!)