Life is, at least in part, about attempting the impossible. Without that we wouldn't have even learned that hitting each other with rocks was a successful way to run an economy. Not a good way, but a successful one. Let alone advanced sufficiently to be constantly driving into people whilst texting, something that would have been impossible a mere 200 years before.
The trick with impossible things appears to not be in doing them, it's in being able to keep doing them. Once you realise that then life becomes...simpler.
Simply abandoning the idea of getting better, forever, and instead trying to improve function now, for a limited period, to do something that's important to you, that may be possible, where getting better simply isn't
Realism, when faced with reality, is an important concept to grasp. As is that things always get worse, it's practically a law of nature.
So I'm trying to improve capacity now, or at least over the next couple of months (some things take time), as it looks like that may be possible. After that, who cares, things were going too get worse anyway.
Sorry if that's insensitive, I know a lot of you aren't at a place where you can do anything to improve things even for a few hours, I lived there for a very long time, or that you have responsibilities that dictate that you can't put everything into one last push, but I've done my time for other people, there is no one left I feel responsible for, it's my time now.